After 3+ Years on the Bench........

I have been on the bench from TTC for what seems like FOREVER now. One crisis after the other put a hold on my TTC attempts. FINALLY I am back and I am proceeding full steam ahead. My "tank" A.K.A. - Man in the Can arrived yesterday afternoon....Wow. I was busy until late evening and then it hit me....and the tears just arrived. Years ago, I lost the TRUE love and soul mate of my life tragically and to date I haven't been able to find another worthy life partner.(I admit, I am not even trying that hard) My finance & I had life so mapped out but God had other plans and although I will always hurt, I know God's plan is NOT always what we want. However, last night I felt so emotional and my mind went to my lost love even more than usual. I have chosen to TTC w/Hispanic donors in his & my honor and I just pray for a blessed outcome. I have been going to Mass extra and praying for strength on this journey. Even if it is NOT in God's plan to allow me to have a baby from a Pregnancy, I pray God will give me peace to be able to deal with that reality and the ability to search out other paths to Motherhood. I am so excited about this opportunity to TTC again......If you have any spare Baby Dust, I could sure use a sprinkle or a truckload! Hugs & Love to all my buddies out there!