Saturday, January 06, 2007
Am I OUT of My Freakin' Mind?
UGGGGHHHH! OK, please turn back now if you can't handle a vent session. I need my Blog outlet in a big way right now. Today, I had a lovely Blowout with my Mom. Or as I refer to her in my head when I mad, Mommy Dearest. True, Mom and I have been through alot together. This however has nothing to do with us Loving each other it has to do with our arguments or fights....and yes, we do have both because Hey, we are human. Anyway, how is it that your mom can say something that can get you from 0 to 180 in a matter of moments? Previously, all these things were MUCH easier because since I went to college....I have always lived on my own & did things MY way. Now, since I moved my parents in my Home, we have TWO Alpha females on the block & every now & then it gets slightly sticky. My Mother is from the planet, Iamalwaysright&youarealwayswrong. Let me tell you that planet stinks big time. Sure, I have visited there from time to time but that is My Moms home planet. I think today was just a bad day for her...from the moment I woke up she was on me like a target. For a moment I thought wait a minute, is this the Twilight Zone? Then I was making a list of 20 errands I need to handle as Mom is adding to the list, assuming I will take care of everything (which I will) without even "asking" me first about my plans. Then, to top it all off, I asked her to handle ONE call for me last week while I was at my Conference during the day...simply to make an Appointment regarding my Home Warranty...GUESS WHAT, she forgot. Hey, no problem it happens right, right......but she forgot because she was watching her "stories." Her stories faithful readers are The Young & the Restless and The Bold & the Beautiful. That in itself wouldn't be so ironic if she didn't 3 years ago make fun of people that are "hooked" on Soaps. Now look.....she is like my Old College Freshman Dorm was on "Friends" nights. True, Mom is going through alot and has been for YEARS but some days are just HARD for me. I NEVER show it to the outside world, that isn't my style. Some days I go into The Master Bedroom, get in the Garden Tub and think....."Am I Out of My Mind to add a Baby to all my Responsibilities?" Two Parents that are aging & rely on me for so much, A permanently sick mother that also battles Severe Depression & Mood Swings and a "wacked" out sister that is a complete mess....they could write a Lifetime Movie about her craziness. Nights like tonight when I am doing about 101 things & need to do even more, I wonder If I am CRAZY to add another Human Being to my life. Then I think....I survived my Family growing up and in general can laugh and stay positive about my life....MAYBE just MAYBE my Child can survive me too.
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Oh yeah, a child can survive you and your family and will actually benefit from it. You are an awesome person to have your parents live with you. I admit that I could never let my mom live with me. I think we all feel like this from time to time and you just take your "me time" enjoy it and it will likely seem less stressful later. Hang in there.
Hey you! Venting is what Blogging was made for... when you said that comment about going 1-180 in a matter of seconds... BOY have I been there with my mother. And she is one of the FEW people who can do that to me.. Unlike you my mom doesnt live with me.. but as I get older and since I am not married.. she RELIES on me for taking care of things for her.. which is totally OK.. GEEZ she took care of me for a LONG time. I just wanted to say that I know what you mean and that I LOVE the fact that it is not just me !! HAHA
Anyway girl.. hope everything in good 'ol Florida is going good! Have a Happy Day :-)
Ladies as usual thanks for the wonderful comments and keeping me Sane...:) Michell thanks for the encouragement, I appreciated it.
**Tracey - You are NOT alone and I agree it isn't easy. I would be lying if I said is was easy. I never regret my choice but sometimes I question if I would be looney to add to my life.**
It is great to have an Outlet for my feelings & a sounding board for my thoughts!
Candace, the most important thing is making sure you are happy, so YES you should add a baby to the mix. I think you are awesome for moving your family in, that isn't an easy task to accomplish. You will be a wonderful mother and I know no matter what you will make it work!
AWW, honey. Its our mothers job to drive us crazy. And we will do it to our children:) I think you're amazing for stepping up to the plate and taking care of your parents. That shows gratitude and responsibility and any child would be blessed to live in that!
Chin up:)
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