¡Féliz Año Nuevo!

Happy New Year. Thank God I made it to see another year. As crazy as this world is, I still would like to stay in it for many years to come. What a year it has been, filled with Joy, Pain, Confusion and Realism. I spent today handing out Meals with one of the organizations I volunteer with, Meals on Wheels. Today, we focused on the shut-in clients that have economic challenges. We delivered Meals to them free of charge. (1 weeks worth with snacks). I ADORE volunteer & community service work. One day I woke up, stopped making excuses & made time to lend a hand around me. I LOVE it. I also belong to 3 other Organizations and I highly recommend finding something you love & digging in & lending a hand. Let me tell you, it doesn't take money or a lot of free time....it only takes a bunch of love. If you have 2 hours a month to spare guess what, I bet 100 different organizations would LOVE to have you. For me, reaching to help others makes me feel like I have been helped in return. Anyway, just food for thought.

Now on to My "GOALS" for the New Year

1. Eat a little better and YES, try to go and use my stinkin' Gym Membership!
2. Be more understanding when my Mom is Irrational & a smidgen Unstable some days - After all she is sick and frustrated & I just happen to be her usual Target. I will keep being positive about her remission & keep ENCOURAGING her to stay on her Anti-depression Meds. (Please Lord).
3. I will try to open my heart more to the opposite sex this year...it has been YEARS since my Fiance died and I still judge anyone against him & guess what they will NEVER be him so I always Block and find a reason to call it quits. Hey, I am a counselor myself, I know why I am doing it....but this year I am opening my WHOLE Heart and I will try to take one Day at a time. My Fiance would not want me to stop living but it is so hard in regards to relationships. Sure, I know some folks have a love of their life die & less than a year later they are married again....NOT ME! My Fiance was truly my Soul Mate and even years later I know my heart hurts for him. This year I will be more open with myself. Ok, I will try. To be honest finding "him" is NOT a priority......becoming a Mother is!
4. Be a better friend this year. I am going to try to keep up with e-mails & phone calls a little quicker....try. I love my friends but sometimes life gets so crazy on my end & I get a little behind.
5. I will try to be a better Teacher everyday & keep the thought that each student is someones' entire world. I will keep my Curriculum Varied and Engaging & even at my most frustrated, I will forge ahead. I will attempt to not get as mad inside at worthless Parents that tell me they care & then never answer my notes, return my calls or even show up at school events....even when they could walk right over. In fact, I have had parents show up to Parent teacher conferences..DRUNK. I will keep praying for these children and their families.
6. I will try to keep being the Best teacher Mentor I can to all the New Teachers with all the answers, and to remember I was just as green when I had my first classroom. I want these New teachers to Feel or see why I LOVE teaching. It isn't the pay or the praise....it is the Change. Sometimes if we are lucky, as a teacher you can see something you are doing make changes happen. In my new position I have begun to Observe this already.
7. I will get my "Baby Dreams" Quilt finished this Year....I have been collecting Quilting squares for 1.5 years....I want to have it completed by December 31 2007.
8. I want to stay POSITIVE about my attempts at Motherhood....when I get my BFP isn't in my hands but how I handle myself during the process is. I can do it!
9. Live life to the fullest, have fun, hug my Pomeranians, love my family and be Crazy sometimes! Do more than just Exist.